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today was mitch's funeral
it was really good to go and say goodbye
i've known him since like 5th grade
it was good to be there for eric and blake, too
blake like played hockey with him forever.
everyone was really upset, which is upsetting
but we got to help bury him and that felt good
so me and kevin are pretty much done
livejournal, i know you dont know who that is bc i only update you when im feeling sad, but he's this guy ive been talking to for liek 5 months and hes 6' 9" and amazing and i was crazy about him an dhe was crazy about me but all we do is fight now
ive been hanging out with blake and he gets jealous even tho i have no romantic interest in that boy. if i invite you to go to blakes house with me, im obviously not trying to get back with blake. even tho me and him are like the greatest beer pong team ever lol. but anyways, last weekend we went over there and i got drunk and started yelling at kevin for god knows what and that was like the last straw i guess. i like cried and threw up the whole way home but like i dunno we hung out went jet skiing a few days later and we had a talk and decided to be just friends until we can stop fighting and all that what not but we were like real flirty all day so maybe later after we swallow our pride and stop fighting about everything we can try it again? i dont know... and im starting not to care. its just too much to deal with
its funny though now how me and blake have been hanging out and going to lunch and stuff and you'd think that would make me happy but i could honestly care less. i like him as a friend a lot but im not interested in him like that anymore. i just want to be with kevin, which is turning out to be a wreck as well. i fail at relationships... and that is why its easier to be a whore :)
i want to go back to hawaii wtih courtney and live there and not worry about anything ever agian. im glad to be back in school but i'm having a serious health issue and may not be able ot be on the swim team this year. i got my physical filled out and all but i have to go back to the doctors soon to make sure i'm okay. i would say what it is but its gross(and its not an STD for everyone who assumes that). but i just want to finish this year and go to UF, DUKE, or USC. i have a 3.9 but since i have 4 AP's and 3 Honors this year, i can probably get it to a 4.1 or 4.2 which would be amazing. that would get me into duke which would make me sooooo hapy :):)
so this brady guy. he's cute. star of the Bishop Moore football team. goes to fun parties. we're like really good friends and i think we're going on a date this weekend, but he hooked up with ashley(ew) drunkenly this summer and i dont know if i could handle dating a guy that has hooked up with one of my friends? but we'll see
my head hurts tho so im gonna go xo
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2/6/06 @ 8:55pm] |
Love doesn't exist, that's what I'm trying to tell you guys. And I'm not picking on love, 'cause I don't think friendship exists either.
vince vaughn is wise.
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1/29/06 @ 7:48pm] |
so friday night i took kevin and our friedns to kobe's for his birthday. i payed for him and a friend as part of his birthday. i also got him an abercrombie shirt, a bunchhh of milkyways(thats his favorite) and i came to kobes with a bunchhh of baloons for him(15 lol) and we took lots of pictures and ate a lot and had cake and it was a blast <3
then we went back to courtneys and got kinda drunk lol but it was fun
cary slept over friday
saturday we woke up and went driving around and then got chinese food and got fish
mine's name is chuck norris and her's is p. diddy. they are those beta fish. they are hott
then saturday night we went to a party in apopka with our boyss <3
cary is with andrew
monica is with eric
and im with kevin, but not really lol we're taking it sloww
i got really drunk and me and kevin were talking and i ended up like crying in front of him and stuff which is crazy bc ive never cried in front of a boy, not even blake! yikes! but it was kindof embarrassing
then today he came over and we went jet skiing and talked and stuff
cary jason amanda and courtney were here for awhile
but we talked and like things are pretty good between us.
we're gonna like take it slow and stuff, bc all the shit that has happened
i mean we talk for ever and have so much fun together
at the moment we're just close friends, we're trying to stay away from physical things lol
i guess we'll see how it goes <3
peace out nigs
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